It'll always be a fight

I will not give up.

Giving up is never an option.

But I'm exhausted again. Exhausted from myself which is the worst because you can run away from anything but not from yourself.

You can't run from the voices in your head.

You can't run from the hate you feel towards yourself.

So you need to learn how to work with yourself. Work with your demons not against them. Taim them. Make them yours.

Learn to accept that there will be days/weeks like today. Where it all comes down at once. Where you doubt yourself. Where you feel like a failure and have unlearned everything you've once learned to get your demons under control.

This is the hardest thing to do for me. Accepting my weaknesses. Accepting that I'm different and accepting that I'll always have to fight for my whole life.